sigh.

I feel like I’m trying really hard to reach the surface of the pool and quickly running out of breath. This is an overused metaphor, but an apt description of how I’m feeling today. Bad Mood + Bad Weather + Hormones + Allergies + Aversion to Work = Grumpy Deb.

I’m sure it is all PMS and I am just tired of having a freaking headache everyday along with watery eyes and sinus pressure. My goal has always been to make this a place of positivity and not my own personal place to bitch. That’s what home is for, right???

But every now and again it slips out, like when 15 people are gathered in front of my cube talking with a former coworker who stopped by to visit. Now, I’ve got absolutely nothing against this dude, I am just in a shitty mood and talking is so far beyond my skill set today. I am not very good at small talk on my best day, on a day like today it is positively torturous. I just want to put on my headphones, continue to read the internets, and try to work in peace.

Maybe what I need is a place like this:
http://grainedit.com/2009/05/28/arthur-erickson-graham-house/

I would be in a good mood every day if that was where I lived.

Just Downloaded:
Good Old War - "Only Way to be Alone"
Mandy Moore - "Amanda Leigh"
(and they're helping lift the gloom)